We Endure: Aumberly's Story
I haven’t always struggled with mental illness.
It wasn’t something that I honestly thought was even a real thing until I experienced it myself and I quickly learned what I was dealing with was VERY real, and not always in my control. For a person who likes to be in complete control, that was a hard pill to swallow. In 2011 I went through a traumatic experience while serving a mission for my church, and what happened there would change my life forever. I came home and was
diagnosed with OCD/Anxiety and PTSD.
Learning to deal with a mental illness is a hard thing. There are good days, and bad days, happy days, and frustrating days. There are times where I feel like I have a good grip on life and then something will happen and the crap hits the fan. I have learned to lower the expectations I have for myself, and where I think I should be, and be okay with where I am. I have had many wonderful people who have helped me along my journey. My sweet, patient husband, an amazing counselor, and many loving friends and family, who love and uplift me when I need it the most. Most of all, I give all the glory to my Father in Heaven, who comforts me, helps me learn lessons I need to learn, and helps me see where I can be better. I wouldn’t wish living with a mental illness on anyone, but I also wouldn’t give it away.
I didn’t feel that way at first, but the lessons, and skills I have learned from enduring this have blessed my life in so many ways. I have met many other amazing men and women who also struggle, and they have helped me, and I have been able to help them as we all trek along on our personal healing journeys. If you struggle, know you aren’t alone. Know that there is help available! An Elder in my Church, Elder Holland said:
Don’t assume you can fix everything, but fix what you can. If those are only small victories, be grateful for them and be patient. Patiently enduring some things is part of our mortal education.
This is just a small part of who I am. I am so many more things than my illness, and I know each day that I fight it gets better and better! I have so many happy days, and good days, that when a bad day comes I just have to let it roll off my back and keep going. Ultimately I am a Daughter of God, and look forward to the day when “I can stand glorified and grand, breathtakingly perfect in body and mind.” But until then, I will keep pushing, keep moving, and keep being kind to myself.
Each of our guest authors has submitted their own writing in order to share their story. The Sunkissed Peach is committed to creating a community in which people can be open and share honestly, in all walks of life. If you are triggered by any of these stories, I ask that you reach out to a mental health professional or counselor. If you relate or have had a similar experience, please feel free to comment and interact with the author.